All my previous words were my own opinions played by myself, without any other meaning. I just want to write something when I think it’s funny. Therefore, if there is any real collision, I can only say that I am lucky to resonate with the outside world. Just like the test questions made by senior high school students, it is not easy to have something similar to the subclasses of college entrance examination papers. Some people will feel that they are capable only by looking at their strengths, but if you look at their weaknesses, you will find that they seem to be dreaming. As far as I know, I just have some hobbies and abilities in writing. But it is not very outstanding. And I became an online writer not because I was particularly excellent, but because of my long-term persistence. As the old saying goes, as long as the kung fu is deep, the iron pestle is grinded into a needle. My ability is not good. Just like in the exam. And my psychological quality is also very low. So I am afraid of places with many people. Especially in full view of the public. I don’t want to overcome it, and it is difficult to overcome it. Since I was a child, I have been unable to deal with interpersonal relationships, so for almost 20 years, I have often encountered obstacles in interpersonal relationships. So deep down, I am also afraid of associating with others. I am afraid that this shadow will not disappear until I die. That is to say, my psychological quality is not good, and I have the inherent habit of being afraid of becoming the focus. So, don’t worry about others, just make my interpersonal relationship very good, it will also make me very tired. Basically, I feel uncomfortable when I see acquaintances. But now it’s better. But I still don’t want to have a deep relationship with others. Maybe from a certain point of view, I feel that I can be qualified for some positions, but whether I can really do that cannot be evaluated immediately. When I was working, I didn’t dare to take the lead even in a two-person team. I am afraid of taking responsibility for accidents, and I am also afraid of long-time contact with people, and even more afraid of receiving orders for tasks. What I like most is writing and drawing when there is no one. Because at that time, nobody bothered me and asked me to do this or that. When Chairman Mao passed away, he handed over the burden to a senior official in Hunan. But later we could see that people like that who already had a lot of official experience were not suitable to take that position. It can be seen that only when everyone puts him in the right position can he play his role. If you are a little careless, big jokes will appear. When I was in school, in the class of about 50 people, I felt uncomfortable once the teacher asked me questions. Compared with the mention of me, I was so scared that I didn’t know how to answer what I would have. At that time, I often looked down upon me because of the negative answer. It also embarrassed me. After many years, my weakness has not changed much. Today, a priest came to my house to talk with me. He said I was weak. I think he is right. But this kind of weakness of my heart is not influenced by the day after tomorrow, but the inherent psychological deficiency. I have tried to change it many times, but failed every time. And every time I fail, I find that the degree of weakness is more severe. Many people like to compete for fame and wealth. In fact, I also want. But it doesn’t matter if I always think about fame and wealth, but many people are watching you, how can this be endured. I don’t want to be the focus of attention. You should not be too tough. I think in this case, we should consider it carefully. Otherwise, energy will be wasted and there will be no good results. If I could succeed, I would be like an inconspicuous planner in the background of a TV program. I can’t play any role in front of the stage. In an article in the afternoon, I told what I knew from a low-level perspective. I don’t know the situation of the whole China, but just know some information, so I casually talk about it. So it caused unnecessary trouble. I think many people’s weak cognition of law will lead to bad situations. But this is not the case. It still needs to be studied carefully. The development and stability of society need the support of mainstream consciousness. Special can only be established on these mainstream. I am just a special case, and it doesn’t make much sense to pay attention to me. At least you can supervise my articles, others are doing meaningless waste. My advantage in writing is that I worked so hard and spent a lot of energy to complete it. It is my unexpected harvest. I think if some people in the university have the 1‰ of my efforts, they will succeed. I wrote a lot, but I found my own way. And all my creations are copies of this mode. If you are asking me to do something else, I guess I have to fight again from the beginning. Exam-oriented education needs comprehensive talents. I am not a comprehensive talent. Also not pian ke sheng. I am just an ordinary person with mediocre ability. Many people spent a lot of time in me and got nothing, but they were afraid of losing face and being afraid of people saying that there was something wrong with his eyesight. So I dare not admit the fact. In fact that’s how. The truth will come to light sooner or later. Way can’t again wrong. It is right to evaluate a person’s ability objectively. I found that when I picked up the pen, I was bold. But if you let me talk, I will be as timid as a mouse. I won’t take the responsibility of others’ sustenance, nor dare I, let alone willingly. My advantage is to turn on the computer and knock on the things I encountered during the day. I really don’t want to do anything else. Even if I work and someone gives me a position, I dare not pick it up. In fact, I am not brave, afraid, and really do not have the ability to respond. Living in the society, only by taking advantages can we live better, and we must eat with shortcomings, and there are almost no such people. Looking at my experience, it seems that I will be a very amazing person. In fact, I was acting aimlessly. This makes the situation very big, just like media hype. In fact, I am have no choice. When I used to be very ordinary, I envied those who got high marks very much. Now many people say that I have the ability, and I really regret it. I do not up official post. If there is no knowledge in books in my life, I am afraid that I cannot live. If I don’t succeed in writing, I’m afraid I can’t even find a wife. I want to earn some money, and also want to have some status. But nowadays, girls who are a little decent love money and people with status. I am working hard for this situation. If someone is willing to tie up with me after learning, I guess I won’t become an online writer. Speaking of being an official, I am envious. I also want to have such power. But when I suffer setbacks, I will find that psychological problems and comprehensive abilities are my biggest obstacles. So I said, maybe I can make contributions in culture, but I am afraid that I will always live up to others’ expectations in politics. After all, politics and literature need different abilities. Thinking of this, I really hope I can have books to sell in the market. This is my idea. But it is still far from realized. Many online writers have become rich through words, which is also my idea. I have neither noble sentiment nor good virtue. I have what others have, and I also have some shortcomings that others don’t have. I often hope that I can study in school again. But it is impossible now. And even if you let me go, I dare not go. Everything is normal now. Very ordinary. I want to manage my writing. Because I can get some wealth there. As for the others, it is estimated to be unrealistic. I still hope someone can think it over. Maybe I will become a cultural star. But it is just a star. I’m afraid I can’t do anything else. If you want to wrap lines, it will take many years of hard work. Life is not much, I want to live more easily. I don’t want to try other industries. I hope to be respected by others. And all these need to be done from reality. Neither fantasy nor conjecture can work. I think it is better to seek truth from facts. Otherwise, the consequence will be a farce.

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I once loved you silently and hopelessly. Love without hope, do you not expect any response or do you know that you can’t be together but cannot help loving in despair? In that starless night, his voice penetrated through the earmuffs of countless people through electric waves, saying: Love is a personal thing. On the paper, her words were printed on the readers’ hearts, saying: love is up to the heaven, but not up to oneself. Remember the past. The past that cannot be abandoned. What kind of curse is that? He regards her as life, is it her luck or his misfortune? Later, I always thought: if she left with him in that weird snow, would she be happier? If she left with him in that terrible escape, would she be happier? If nothing happened and she didn’t meet him, would she be happier? Everyone said that she was his disaster star. From the very beginning, bad luck continued. Everyone said that she was too young to be worldly and not suitable for his world of intrigue. But he said that she gave everything to him. If he shook his hand, he would destroy her. In my opinion, defiance exists. Because of its existence, we know the cruelty that all good wishes will not be realized. Love cannot defeat the power of fate. The divination Gypsy woman said to her: Your body is in one place, but your heart is in another place. Under the expulsion of God, wandering ceaselessly. He and she did not disappoint each other, but were betrayed by fate. He and she didn’t play with each other, but they were played with by fate. If she was the girl in white dress he loved when he was a student, maybe they would be very vulgar and happy. But all these assumptions are not true. I think the blank he left on the paper was not only telling her that what he could do for her, but also the endless love he could not tell her. How could the woman he had been caring for lose herself at all? It was clear that he could no longer guard him, so he told her that if he went forward, there would be someone who loved you more than me. He wished her a safe and happy life. Giving up and not giving up are all among them. He threw himself aside to save her. I can’t imagine how heartbreaking pain he felt when he walked alone at the end of the road, thinking her name silently in his heart. What kind of love makes him choose to leave alone quietly? There are too many things that cannot be fulfilled in the world. She couldn’t snuggle up with him in a certain country, but at least she completely collected Diorissmo’s slim and cold taste. The smell of love between her and him. I love you instead of him. But who can know exactly whether this is lucky or unfortunate? Those past, unforgettable, how sad she recalled alone. I can’t give it up, forget it, and feel sad. If you leave together in the disasters you have experienced, you may be happier. At least hand in hand to the end. Later, I always thought like this.

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