Xiao Xi narrowed her eyes and saw the orange sunset sinking little by little. The cruise ship full of laughter and laughter drifted away gradually, leaving only a little black dot. The salty and wet sea breeze blew on my face. Xiaoxi wrapped the light blue cutout sweater tightly. It was very quiet around, and I could only hear the sound of the waves beating the reef. The small crabs were crawling lonely on the beach, and the colorful shells were as silent as stars… A great sense of loneliness suddenly struck. Xiao Xi’s nose became sour, and big drops of tears slipped down her cheeks. She really wanted to cry loudly to the empty sea and vent the anxiety and depression of these days. Xiaoxi turned around to see if there was anyone around, so as not to be treated as a mental derangement by others. A few steps away from her, there was a man standing quietly, a black trench coat wrapped in a straight body, with his hands inserted in his pocket. At this moment when he was facing the sea, he turned his head Strangely. Unexpectedly, there were two drops of round tears hanging in the corner of his eyes. Xiaoxi almost burst into tears and smiled: such a big man should cry quietly to the sea! Could it be that I read the world for a long time, and cried out alone!? If you want to put it aside at ordinary times, Xiao Xi, who speaks quickly, will certainly tease him, no matter whether he is a stranger or not. Now she thought about her crying red eyes, and said thoughtfully: The sea breeze is so strong that the eyes are filled with sand… The man in black rubbed his eyes and sucked his nose. He answered immediately: No, me too… Then they looked at each other and laughed at each other. The man smiled like a child, with a bright and clear appearance as if no one was around. Xiaoxi suddenly felt that he was very kind, and even the brown round mole on his face seemed familiar. There is a mysterious atmosphere in people. Xiao Xi felt for no reason that this man was of his own kind, with a similar breath. Talking and laughing in front of people, witty words; Quiet and silent behind people, if thinking. Smile is not necessarily happiness, tears are not necessarily sadness, only loneliness is so real. When they came back from the seaside, they had dinner together, drank a little red wine and got drunk. Both of them are humorous and have a good chat. I was reluctant to give up when I said goodbye, and I went to the terrace to watch the stars. I like watching the sky very much. It is as lonely as people. Facing it, I feel that I have a companion and can tell silently… He looked at her with a little astonishment and said, “maybe it is because there is an unknown Sky hidden in everyone’s heart… When they said goodbye, both of them actually thought they would meet again, as if they were only one step away from all over the world. He and she are the men and women who hide from the rain under the same roof on rainy days. It seems that I can meet each other every day. Some people have known each other for several years and are still like strangers. Some people are as close as old friends after only knowing each other for a few hours. Life is so strange. Just like the song “legend” sung by Faye Wong, I just took a look at you in the crowd… They didn’t leave a phone number for each other, but they left QQ numbers for each other. His net name was Zeng jingcanghai, which was hard to be water. They must be friends. It seems that they are friends originally and always. This kind of tacit understanding makes Xiaoxi feel like a lifetime. (2) the wedding date is set on Tanabata. Xiao Xi’s heart was inexplicably anxious. Friends said she had premarital phobia. It is normal to say goodbye to being single and step into another stage of life, which is always a little nervous and confused. The bridegroom Xiaofeng has been in love with Xiaoxi for three years. He has a stable job, a refined appearance and a generous personality. He can cook and cook, repair household appliances, repair toilets, and more importantly, he can accompany Xiaoxi to go shopping happily, good is a bit impeccable. They are lovers on weekends, and they are busy with their own work at ordinary times. Every day, Yao Xiaofeng calls Xiaoxi regularly to send text messages and says good night. One day, if Xiao Xi and Xiao Zi come up, tell me that I miss you, and show up immediately! Even if it rains heavily and the wind blows, they will drive here as soon as possible. The Little Sisters all said to Xiao Xi with envy and hatred that you have to put your eyes on such a best man. Now this kind of economical and suitable man is the most popular! Xiao Xi curled his mouth, hum! As long as I do nothing, I will do it! Xiao Xi feels very happy when she is watching movies in Xiao Feng’s arms. With such a peaceful and steadfast man, we should be able to live in peace and quiet life! But why do you often feel lost? Just because he doesn’t like traveling, can’t he understand his own words? Yes, it seems not… Xiaoxi knew that she was a turbulent woman in her heart and often had the impulse to wander. She likes the feeling of being on the road. She likes the changing scenery. I hate the unchangeable lifeless most. And Xiaofeng is a science man, rational and pragmatic, who likes to stay at home…. They complement each other, but they are not of the same kind. May understand each other’s laughter, but cannot understand each other’s silence… But they love each other. Xiaofeng is extremely fond of Xiaoxi. He once said to Xiaoxi, “You are the woman in my dream… And Xiaoxi was used to relying on him. She even didn’t go to the bank to deposit or withdraw money, and didn’t remember the direction when walking. Anyway, Xiaofeng was there, just holding his hand. Sometimes I suddenly fear, if there is no small wind, what should I do? That kind of inborn insecurity gripped her deeply again. Love was too much, and sometimes it would become a shackle. Once she told Xiaofeng seriously if you could not treat me so well, I would feel uneasy… Looking at Xiaofeng’s grievance and startled expression, Xiaoxi had no desire to tell. She knew he didn’t understand… (3) the space where the sea was once difficult to be water is very popular. And my friends are almost all beautiful women, and they are almost full of spring. His writing style is good, no matter the trivial matters of life or the feeling of soul, he can explain it in detail. It seems that the waves are calm but he listens to the Thunder silently. Humor reveals wisdom and slight sadness. It can catch a woman’s heart. It makes people feel that he is a deep-hearted Nalan again. She likes the background music and painting of his space very much. It should be the same with a turbulent soul, but it is hard to find a peaceful destination. This place of peace is my home. Where is my home? Looking at those colorful women’s ambiguous messages on his message board, her heart suddenly became distressed faintly, as if her bosom friend who belonged exclusively to her was robbed by someone. Xiaoxi snorted in the inner heart: the prosperity of appearance cannot cover the loneliness in your heart. Sample! I can see your heart through words. Few people can chase your unpredictable thoughts. What is the name that once the sea was difficult to be water? It’s simply called removing Wushan is not a cloud… She doesn’t like chatting and thinks it’s too fake. But I like to send him emails. Write a paragraph casually and send it to him. It is already Autumn in My Place, is it still rainy in your place? Will you become a talking Moss? Haha! The clouds in autumn are so beautiful, just like the Epiphyllum in the sky. I am walking on the road, the breeze is coming, and I really want to sing a song… She sent it and didn’t care whether he would reply or not. She just liked to tell him like this. She would send a letter every day, and she felt that she would understand such a disorganized expression. He occasionally showed her the diary in his draft box and asked her to be the first reader. In fact, she secretly admired him for her nitpicking. This man should have such exquisite writing style, and he must have learned psychology very well… Once, she said casually when chatting occasionally that it was strange that I dreamed of you last night. He came back to me immediately, too. I dreamed about you twice a night. Suddenly, I thought of the words of thinking day and night and having a dream, and I was in a panic in my heart. I hurried to say 88 and got off the line. Gradually she knew that he had suffered a lot emotionally. Many years had passed and he had not come out of the shadow. He believed in love but was confused. Many women like him. He doesn’t know how to refuse, but he knows that it is not what he wants in his heart. He often falls into a strange circle of ambiguity and finally hurts himself and others. Behind the kindness and warmth, this man was as cold as an iceberg. Few people could enter his heart. He could like many people but it was hard for him to fall in love with someone. He can laugh and play with you, but you can’t ignite his enthusiasm. Behind the seemingly perceptual is the unshakable reason. He may give others the feeling of happiness, but he himself may not be happy. Behind his half-true and half-false words, you can’t guess who he holds in his heart. It was strange that Xiaofeng had only talked with him for several times, but it seemed that she could see his mentality clearly, as if he was a relative living together and understood it as a mirror. A feeling of pity and concern grew secretly. Xiao Xi would feel lost if he didn’t see his head light up every night. Some inner depression was unwilling to mention to Xiaofeng, but he was used to pouring out to him and somehow thought he would understand. Sometimes I suddenly feel distracted during the daytime work, but what I think in my heart is not Xiao Feng. Xiao Xi was surprised and sweated all over. Do you want to drink poison to quench thirst? The scenery on the cliff is very beautiful, but it will fall to pieces accidentally. The dull little wind didn’t notice the subtle changes of small Xi, and was as meticulous as always. Xiao Xi’s temper became more and more anxious, sometimes it was simply unreasonable. She just felt depressed and wronged, and wanted to find an excuse to cry. At the same time, she was afraid of hurting the kind breeze. She would never allow herself to do so. Her consistent aim is never to hurt anyone. (Four) Xiao Xi gradually lost weight in the struggle and began to suffer from insomnia at night. Excitement and guilt coexist. She asked herself, did she fall in love with someone else? And this kind of wishful virtual love is clearly the abyss of despair. No, I just want to find a bosom friend. She defended herself guilty. Wedding had been near. Xiao Xi wants to escape. She didn’t want to get married in such a state of confusion. She wanted to clarify her thoughts. No matter who she loved, she must be clear. She volunteered to go to the mountain area to teach. But she lied to Xiaofeng that it was a rigid assignment of the school, so she had to go and the wedding date could only be postponed. Supporting education takes half a year, and she has enough time to listen to her heart. This town yishanbangshui beautiful environment. There is a large area of birch forest at the school gate, with birds singing tactfully. There are only more than thirty children in class 1 of grade 3 she teaches, all of whom are very clever and sensible. She was very fond of her new teacher Yang, and she didn’t go home after school. She was surrounded by her and chattered. The school has its own vegetable garden which is absolutely green and pollution-free. Every day I drink clear spring water, and the sky seems to be particularly blue. Colleagues were all enthusiastic and simple, taking care of her, who was thin and weak. They often helped her fill with water quietly. Some elder sisters also brought her baked pancakes and boiled eggs from home. Xiao Xi’s heart is as bright as being washed by mountain spring. She likes this kind of life far away from the noise. Life is busy and fulfilling. Xiaofeng visits her every half month. Maybe distance produced beauty, and the relationship between her and Xiaofeng also began to be harmonious. Xiao Xi filtered out the fickleness and began to know how to be grateful. Love is unconditional tolerance. I am afraid that my grumpy temper can only be accepted and tolerated by Xiaofeng. No one will love himself like Xiaofeng. She was still used to sending Email to ‘no place to say goodbye to him every day, describing the scenery of the countryside and lovely children. She wanted him to share her happiness. She sincerely hoped that this man with sunny appearance but melancholy heart could be truly happy. Care and miss are still the same. Maybe this is also a kind of love, a love of appreciate each other. Xiao Xi felt a little calm. (5) at the end of supporting education, she received an email that once was hard to get married. He said that he was going to get married. There is a photo of him and a woman on it. That woman has short hair and heavy makeup, with exaggerated earrings and suspender dress, which is very charming and enchanting. Xiaoxi looked at herself with long hair, shawl and plain face, and couldn’t help laughing. It turned out that he liked such a woman. The difference between himself and his standard is 1.8 thousand miles. It turned out that I had never really understood him. Who can really understand who? It turns out that some feelings are just self-righteous illusions. She sent blessings and said goodbye with a smile. My heart still hurts. Having been used to pouring out and emotional dependence on him, the shadow of that bosom friend will disappear forever. The loneliness of the past will spread up like water. She called Xiaofeng, let’s get married! Some feelings bred in loneliness have no place to say goodbye, but they must say goodbye eventually. Since it is just the illusion of love, why is it entangled? Take the once beautiful thought as an eternal secret and bury it in the memory. Xiaoxi walked in the wind with the fragrance of Lily in the air. She shouted loudly to the distant sky to wish you happiness! Wish me happiness! Those hazy thoughts dispersed like fireworks… From then on, each of them has settled down…

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