Journey in confused
Life is like a long journey, starting the travel mode from the moment you were born, until your naked departure marks the end of your journey. Different You and I have the same starting point and end point. No matter you are an ancient or modern person, no matter you are a rich party or you are powerful in the world, we will eventually go to the end of nature, and this cycle rule is out of our choice. But we can choose this intermediate process, although this process may be full of bitterness and bitterness, or this process may be happy and sweet, no matter which one is the most important part of this trip.
Different processes in the journey compose different lives. We may choose different travel methods because of our personal wishes, family conditions or congenital differences between advantages and disadvantages, but this cannot change our desire for travel. Some people may choose rockets, some people or planes from the beginning because of their family Advantages. As for me, I was chosen not to do so. Of course, I don’t like walking, on the contrary, I am very grateful for the different happiness, happiness, bitterness and sweetness brought to me during the walking journey. I don’t envy others’ resplendence or others’ straight-through green cards. I just silently enjoy all kinds of tastes of walking step by step.
I remember when I was an ignorant child, someone asked me what my dream was? At that time, I would proudly tell others that I wanted to be a scientist; When I was in high school, when my friends discussed dreams together, they asked me what my dream was? At that time, I told others deeply that in this vast world, I must be a celebrity who contributes to the society and the nation. Don’t be like my parents, and achieve nothing in my life…; Not every few years, when someone asks me what my dream is, I will thoughtfully tell them that I want to start a business, be a boss for myself and have a rich life. But it was less than a few years. After graduation, no one asked what my dream was. Maybe others thought that such a big person had any dreams, maybe. However, I often tell myself that my dream is to have a stable job and a warm home so that my family can live a stable life. This is not only my dream now, but also my life goal now.
Now, I often think that my life may have passed 1/3. Although I have walked through many crossroads, I often feel that there is another intersection in front of me. Stop thinking about the dream? It is constantly easier and more specific and realistic at the same time. I can’t tell whether it is a dream or a goal of life, and even doubt whether I really have a dream now. Think about all the beautiful hopes in the school age, the innocence in the youth age, and then think about where I used to travel on the subway and bus with a resume in a strange city.
Recalling that I was naive, longed and confused, now I should have been very clear about what kind of life I want to live and what kind of process I have. However, when the reality and the dream I once had still collided from time to time, I would start to struggle, thinking about living a plain life like this while unwilling to be lonely and submissive in my heart. Now I gradually understand that my parents are not doing nothing in life, but they are the wisest models around me. They are never confused, never hesitating, and always know exactly what they want, what is the pursuit — that is to bring me up and give me a happy family. However, I am always not clear what I am chasing, like a tall person in thought and a dwarf in action.
Maybe I am haven’t settled enough myself, and I’m still confused. But I believe that life needs sunshine, but more need confusion. Who is young and not confused? Who is young and does not hesitate? Only when one is confused can one know his own direction more easily and locate his own coordinates more easily. In this way, one can find his own way, and then he can travel through hardships and go far away. Only by looking for yourself and perfecting yourself in constant confusion can you compose your colorful life journey. When it comes to the end, you will not regret for your life’s hesitation and wasting time, nor feel lonely and desolate for your life’s straight journey and never giving.
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